- *RoYaLtY LiFe*

Wednesday, June 28, 2006
1:16 AM

y izzit always so hard to communicate...
ive been trying to handle this so carefully.
and each time i tried to talk nicely,
the response i get seems so harsh.

wanted me to confirm things before i do.
i did. and the response was this.

didnt even have the meaning of blaming.
juz feel tt there is nt even trust in me.
its so obvious.
but i kept quiet.
it muz be my fault tt leads to this.

its my project too.
so i wan to screw up my project?

seriously,
i dunno how to communicate.
its sort of pushing me further away.

drained

..250 thousand years of waiting..

Sunday, June 25, 2006
3:26 AM

fuck.
my screen protector came off.
9 bucks wasted.
gonna try to get a new one tml.

so many things undone.
have to finish half by tml at least.
nt yet even study for my test.
argh..
quality management.

may there be no scratches on my phone.
or i will go bonkers.

..250 thousand years of waiting..

Thursday, June 22, 2006
3:18 AM

hmm.. wat am i doing at this kind of wee hour?
viewing friendster, blogging, snatching com with my bro, listening to songs thru my phone..
so busy! LOL

bro damn smart. actually noe how to operate my phone using the music player, which i ACTUALLY DIDNT NOE RIGHT FROM THE START.
so am i dumb, or he's smart?
well, i rather say im dumb than praise him. heeheex..

idiotic, keep rushing me for the com.

went and eat prata with mum and bro juz now.
damn fattening.
shit! think gotta gain weight.
keep eating so much these few nights.
manda commented i've slimmed down.
LIAR! i went and weigh..
its still the same weight. =(
muz be those shirts i wore tt makes me look slim.
fake impression.

woohoo!
i think im the lightest in my family..
i miss the feeling of someone piggybacking meeeeee!
shall ask my bro to do tt tml!

was suppose to watch garfield 2 tml.
mum changed it to eating at "po ti"
then cancelled again cos she's juz plain lazy!

i wan to go out!
hmph, nvm, i go out myself.
walk alone i oso shuang
lalala!
=X

...some pics...

cute chick?

a pig with curly tail

which shadow is mine?

OMG! juz look at how i was in the past..

..250 thousand years of waiting..

Sunday, June 18, 2006
11:34 PM

keep having wrong calls from ppl i dunno for abt a wk.
its really time to change.

suddenly thought of my grandpa.
guess i was too young tt time to feel any sorrows..
but now i cant do without my grandma.
so no, dun bring my grandma away tt soon.
at least let her have a chance to see all her great grand children.
god, u took away too many ppl and things from me,
so pls save my grandma for me.

may everything recover fast for me.
abt 1 more mth, and im having my 3 mths holis.
gonna work and have some programs on..
then i shall save up and go on a shopping spree overseas!

though didnt celebrate father's day..
but dad, may u hear this:
Happy Father's Day &
i love you for wat u have done for the family. =)

i dreamt of my prince charming tt nite..
may he appear soon... =P

well, maybe going to the gays and lesbians pub this wed.. depends

bro supervising me blogging..
shall pass over to him soon.
else he sure nag like hell again...
=X

*i love myself*

..250 thousand years of waiting..

Wednesday, June 14, 2006
10:32 PM

juz uploaded songs over to my phone memory card.
think should get a bigger memory space..

Projects meetings are occupying my whole week of schedule.
finally printed out all the necessary stuffs for tml QM meeting.
now im knocked out.

haven even have my dinner yet.
hmm.. think gotta pass the stuffs over to theresa and serene soon.

suppose its time to really change my hp no.
at times, its irritating to keep receiving wrongs calls and msges.
gotta call the customer service tml to get everything done.

shi ying has the same phone as me! =)
and my right ear has been blocked for quite a couple of days.
pissed off..

*may i recover soon*

..250 thousand years of waiting..

Saturday, June 10, 2006
1:22 AM

already in manda's house..
in her sis room, listening to radio, browsing the net and eating my favourite nata de coco..
everything seem so unchanged from the past..
but in fact, its not the same anymore...
nobody's in my life anymore..
i dun belongs to anyone, and nobody belongs to me..
its an enjoyment in a way ba..

last nite was lying at the bed and thinking,
then i came to realise maybe the style of love and relationship we wanted became different before we knew it.
he wanted a change in his life...
change in identity by changing the name..
change in people around him..
juz like a secondary school boy would do...
still trying to find his "self"...

as for me,
i am satisfied with my life now..
maybe my philosophy of living is different..
i wan to get a serious relationship where i can see future..
i wan treasure my school life before getting out to the society.
i learnt that family and friends are my everything right from the start...

watever it is,
the differences set me thinking that he is nt the type of guy im going for anymore.
i wan a mature yet fun guy, who will spice up my life..
but not now...

good news! i finally got my new phone today!
but i dunno how to use it..
and i didnt even get to develop any feelings with it first..
and i have to leave my house for malaysia...

sis went off to penang too..
left home earlier than me...
my god.. should have asked her to try to get a bag for me.
the day i come back, will be the day she going to genting..
so no fate!

she's getting married this dec..
hehe!!! i feel so excited though im not the bride...
feel so envy.. she got a man tat's willing to pamper her for the whole life.
and her bf - david, actually say maybe i will be the bridesmaid!!!
was so surprised!
thought maybe they will get their friends to be...
woohoo! so happy and excited..
looking forward...
though i think i will miss the presence of sis sleeping near me every nite..
im already thinking who will the bridesman??? (izzit supposed to be called bridesman?LOL)
lets pray to god tt it wont be my brother...
i will faint if it turns out to be him..
my hope for a suave man to partner with me will be dashed then.
NO! i cant let it happen! =(

think gonna stay up for the nite..
leaving at 6.30am.
and mum actually keep calling the whole nite, reminding abt my passport and bag..
my god! so irritating!

anyway, was quite upset i didnt get a chance to change my no.
think shall settle the procedures of changing my no. when i return.
a new no, a new phone!

think bro sure feeling lonely this few nites...
both of his sis nt at home.
serves him right!
who ask him always think tt i should nt be at home to irritate him.
let him learn a lesson!

*sometimes ppl juz need to learn a lesson before they know how to think and behave*

..250 thousand years of waiting..

Friday, June 09, 2006
4:59 AM

juz redo my flash...
hope they will be fine with it..
i need comments and i will do changes... =)

was juz scrolling on other ppl blog..
and OOPS! i discovered ANOTHER LIE!!!
well, am i supposed to be surprised?
i mean after so many lies gotten from the same person...
think i shouldnt rite?

its juz scary to noe how much to a extent a person can lie...
lies lies lies...
wat a fake person..
and i hate fake ppl..
i guess everyone feels the same way.

ok, my eyes are already wide open already...
cleaned after a mistake i made for 2 yrs..
dumb me!
haiz.. wat to do.. it has already happened and its over.

and ya, i didnt really read much for my crm test tts due in 6 hrs time..
gonna wake up early tml to study..
bags for sch as well as my trip for malaysia nt yet packed at all!
gonna stay overnight at manda house tml after watching my 9pm show..
its the last episode! i wouldnt wanna miss tt!

meeting mum at the afternoon tml to get my phone.
god bless me!
may i get the phone by tml.
cos i dun have anymore free time to do tt.

gonna go to bed.
really admire myself.
down with flu sore throat i can still hold on till now.
pray i wont get fever tml.. or else my trip will be gone.
nvm, i shall hide my sickness from mum... LOL
=P

..250 thousand years of waiting..

Wednesday, June 07, 2006
10:22 PM

“曾经，我以为我放不下一段感情。
后来我发现，并不是放不放得下，
而是我愿不愿意。”

im willing to... and i gradually doing it..
besides, its true.. sometimes being independent is wat we need to learn.
this sentence is one tat i would applaused for:
Nthing would stand by you when you needed someone... onli your family. Family is irreplacable.

right now, i wont think much abt it.. shake those memories off.
treasure wats up infront of me.
juz do things according to my intuition...

and i realise im down with flu and sore throat, when i woke up today..
a night sleep can actually bring me germs..
haiz.. i still wanna go play at genting this weekend.
let me pray tt fever bug wont visit me.

back to my flash work..
its giving me headache..
im running out of skills & ideas.
can anyone juz help me with this? =(

..250 thousand years of waiting..

Tuesday, June 06, 2006
11:37 PM

ok, now my serious prob : wat to do with the 200 bucks??
use it or return? but i dun have his account no...
haiz... irritating.. wat a prob..
told mum abt it...
and her ans was nt a constructive one. this is wat she replied, "u very troubled over wat to do with it izzit? ok loh, u give me, i help u settle.." so obvious, its nt good intentions...
idiotic... -_-"

anyway mum oso noes tt some guys have been asking me out...
ok, heres our funny conversation:-

mum: eh, u onli worth 200 bucks arz? like prostitute like tt...

me: wah.. wat kind of mum are u? say me till like tt...

mum: they wan woo u izzit? ask them come lah... come woo me first then woo u..

me: (cant stop laughing)

mum: go take their photos then let me see...

me: for wat! take photo give them more chance to get near me! i nt so stupid can...

mum: y other ppl bf will call u?

me: juz in case onli lah.. anyway, my number very easy to memorise meh? ppl see one time can remember le.. think i ought to change my number soon.

mum: u very "sui" meh? y ppl call u?

me: hey! it has got nthing to do with me "sui" or nt.. is my number easy to memorise! talk to u will die...

mum: then y ppl will want to call u?? (irritating.. keep asking)

me: aiya, dunno lah.. dun ask me abt relationships lah... oso dun involve me in wat.. and now i onli wan to study, play, study and play again...

mum: u should have done tt 2 years ago. (smurking)

me: ya.. i really think 2 yrs ago, i was dumb.. (smiling)

mum: y suddenly the thought? awake already arz... learnt from lesson then will noe hor..

me: ya lah.. learnt lesson liao.. wat to do.. take it as an experience loh.. (laughing)

and the whole nite my mum, me, dad and bro was talking crap and laughing away like crazy family of 4. i simply love those moments.. it juz kinda bond us up..

wat i need and want now is juz a life full with fun with friends and family...
=)

..250 thousand years of waiting..

juz had two tests today...
my god, for the hrm paper, i suddenly got stuck at a ques tt i can easily score... i juz cant remember wat i memorised for tt!!! shit lah, wasted 3 marks.
manda said she dun wan sit nxt to me during test anymore.. mentioned i gave her stress... LOL
pls lah, write more doesnt mean its right and i admit im juz crapping for my answer... HAHA

last nite made a sudden decision to join manda and cp on the genting trip cos fm cant make it...
hmm... didnt expect mum & dad juz readily agree and even gave me the money already (after much waiting)... i was as stunned as manda they all can!

yeah! tt means i will be out from sat till mon... shall try to buy somethings for ppl i noe...
think gonna have fun rides there...
and ya, think can scare cp too at the room.. wonder if she really will bring her buddha??? LOL
shall i bring the cross then? =P

juz viewed the friendster.. my god... i actually feel nothing when i saw those pics of them!!!
weird! maybe i juz cant be bothered le ba... LOL.. tts a good sign anyway.. =)

meeting mum for dinner soon... off i go...

..250 thousand years of waiting..

Thursday, June 01, 2006
1:41 AM

was pretty busy this few days...
had dinner-cum-supper with lawrence, mart & manda last nite..
tt was the first time i risked my life experiencing law's driving skills...
though he was reckless, i still managed to get back home ALIVE without vomiting!!!
LOL!

our navigator, mart & driver, law - took almost 45 mins to locate my house..
ended up me having to walk over to their car...
chay! thought will be directly at my house downstairs..
mart keep scolding me tt i dunno my house area...
my god! im a road idiot can! and how would i noe abt the muRATA and blk 292 when its nt really near my house?? haha...
and i admit, i noe nuts abt roads, directions and EXITS!!!
=P

anyway, it was a pity nt being able to get down to walk at the geylang alleys...
all thanks to martin.. LOL... okay, he was juz having good intentions - protecting us esp when we both gals are wearing shorts???
and ya, i noe the trans is even more "woman" than me in terms of looks, figure & maybe voice???
but i dun need undergo surgery can.. its all natural and real.. 100%... wahaha...
so mart, there's no need for me to feel ashamed of... wth!

had a "stepping and viewing" test with law's car when they fetched me home...
my god! i realise i cant really see the car screen if i have to step down fully on the pedal..
faint! am i tt short??? mart have to keep adjusting the seat to the front for me...
damn sad ba... how am i suppose to drive nxt time??? my license!!! gone!
and law and manda was practically laughing at me once i sat on the driver seat...
even took pictures of me!
how could they??? wat a bunch of frends.... but it was fun out with them anyway.. may we hang out like this more often... but we have to wait for mart to get his car license... sickening! when will tt be? by then, he will fetch manda and law will fetch me...
hope law wont fetch me with a car with one wheel! LOL... juz like his little finger to me??
and we all agreed on going clubbing on our 2 wks holi..its coming soon!!! but after nxt wk's 3 ICAs...
=(

today went to watch da vinci code with siping and jian an...
was already so damn tired since last nite...
onli fell asleep at 5plus am.. woke up at 9plus am..
anyway, to the gals, really damn apologetic abt those misunderstands tt lead to wat happened today...
i shall try harder to start conversations.. but give me some time to adjust? but dun worry, its really fun to hang out with u gals esp when hearing ur conversations together....

anyway, siping juz dun understand the movie? had to explain to her...
and we was actually questioning abt jian an's life and history...
and we totally disagreed to his philosphy...
all the way, i keep pinpointing him... and i get beating from him!
okay, i was bad and mean but everything i said was the facts...
ya, my leg hairs are long.. keep preventing him from seein it..
and he can actually keep pushing me till i almost fall out of the seat..
shouldnt even share my seat with him in the first place..
asshole! keep patting my back the whole nite... LOL

talked to siping from 10 plus pm at the interchange till 12 plus am...
think if nt of the last bus, we could continue till 1 plus???
but we got stuffs to do oso...

tests and projects coming up..
oh ya, should go ask pem abt the oipp..
if mum and dad okay abt it,
then off i go nxt sem..
if nt, then lets get stuck in sch for the nxt sem..

in fact, the road to recovery is nt tt difficult and tough at all when u simply got a bunch of nice friends... keep ur life busy is wat im doing..
maybe i should get siping to join the kickboxing class with me...
try asking her tml then....

*i love siping*

..250 thousand years of waiting..