- *RoYaLtY LiFe*

Saturday, June 10, 2006
1:22 AM

already in manda's house..
in her sis room, listening to radio, browsing the net and eating my favourite nata de coco..
everything seem so unchanged from the past..
but in fact, its not the same anymore...
nobody's in my life anymore..
i dun belongs to anyone, and nobody belongs to me..
its an enjoyment in a way ba..

last nite was lying at the bed and thinking,
then i came to realise maybe the style of love and relationship we wanted became different before we knew it.
he wanted a change in his life...
change in identity by changing the name..
change in people around him..
juz like a secondary school boy would do...
still trying to find his "self"...

as for me,
i am satisfied with my life now..
maybe my philosophy of living is different..
i wan to get a serious relationship where i can see future..
i wan treasure my school life before getting out to the society.
i learnt that family and friends are my everything right from the start...

watever it is,
the differences set me thinking that he is nt the type of guy im going for anymore.
i wan a mature yet fun guy, who will spice up my life..
but not now...

good news! i finally got my new phone today!
but i dunno how to use it..
and i didnt even get to develop any feelings with it first..
and i have to leave my house for malaysia...

sis went off to penang too..
left home earlier than me...
my god.. should have asked her to try to get a bag for me.
the day i come back, will be the day she going to genting..
so no fate!

she's getting married this dec..
hehe!!! i feel so excited though im not the bride...
feel so envy.. she got a man tat's willing to pamper her for the whole life.
and her bf - david, actually say maybe i will be the bridesmaid!!!
was so surprised!
thought maybe they will get their friends to be...
woohoo! so happy and excited..
looking forward...
though i think i will miss the presence of sis sleeping near me every nite..
im already thinking who will the bridesman??? (izzit supposed to be called bridesman?LOL)
lets pray to god tt it wont be my brother...
i will faint if it turns out to be him..
my hope for a suave man to partner with me will be dashed then.
NO! i cant let it happen! =(

think gonna stay up for the nite..
leaving at 6.30am.
and mum actually keep calling the whole nite, reminding abt my passport and bag..
my god! so irritating!

anyway, was quite upset i didnt get a chance to change my no.
think shall settle the procedures of changing my no. when i return.
a new no, a new phone!

think bro sure feeling lonely this few nites...
both of his sis nt at home.
serves him right!
who ask him always think tt i should nt be at home to irritate him.
let him learn a lesson!

*sometimes ppl juz need to learn a lesson before they know how to think and behave*

..250 thousand years of waiting..